[Intro] I want it to be, like, messy [Verse 1] I'm so insecure, I think That I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I if not exploited? And I'm so sick of seventeen Where's my fucking teenage dream? If someone tells me one more time "Enjoy your youth," I'm gonna cry And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious, and nothing can help And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more [Chorus] All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (Ah-ah-ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here [Post-Chorus] (Yeah) [Verse 2] I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately, I'm a nervous wreck 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park [Chorus] All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (Ah-ah-ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here [Post-Chorus] (Yeah) (Just havin' a really good time) [Outro] Got a broken ego, broken heart (Yeah, it's brutal out here, yeah, it's brutal out here) And God, I don't even know where to start